Category Archives: musings

Two years ago

it feels impossible not to acknowledge today, the marathon, the memory of two years ago.  I wrote this then and the picture gives me goosebumps.  Grace looked big then but of course now she’s two years taller and older.  At the last visit to the doctor, 5’1″.  And she runs more now – in fact […]

Insides and Outsides

I’ve written before about the perilous gulf between perception and reality, and about the dangerous assumptions people make about others (okay, fine, me) based on outsides. Outsides and insides are not the same. When I was much younger, and struggling in a difficult period, someone very dear to me expressed frustration and disbelief.  How I […]

Reflections on the Here Year

At the top of Notre Dame, Paris, March 18th.  My memories of this moment include the sight of Paris spread below us, as well as the awe-inspiring, echoing sound of the bells and the uneven, centuries-worn stones under my feet.  I was there. Tomorrow marks the last day of Aidan‘s Here Year, in which I […]

Moments when time stands still

Where were you when you heard that the Challenger exploded?  I was in the hallway outside my 6th grade classroom.  The school receptionist told me the news. Where were you when you heard Princess Diana had died in a car crash in Paris?  I was in a bar in the Adirondacks. Where were you when […]

The Alphabet of Right Now

In 2009, 2011, and 2013 I wrote posts about the “alphabet” of my life at that moment.  I like the construct as a way to capture the specific nuances of a moment, and reading Deborah Copaken’s piece The ABC’s of Adulthood, reminded me of it.  Seeing that it’s 2015, it seems time for my bi-annual […]

Mamalode: The Entire World Contracted

It feels fitting that Mamalode has published my piece, The Entire World Contracted, about a moment I’ll never forget during my first pregnancy, on the day my last baby turns 10 (which I will write about tomorrow!). I hope you will click over and read my short piece here. And the seasons, they go round […]

The increasing vulnerability of right now

Beautiful morning moon, last week, on the way to school. Through the comments on my post last week about vulnerability, I met a new writer whose work I’m enjoying.  In particular, this post, Dear Lonely Moms of Older Kids, really resonated with me.  It made me think about the fact that if parenting is an […]

her wounds came from the same source as her power

I loved the movie version of Wild, a book I adored.  I came straight home and went to my heavily underlined- and written-in copy of Adrienne Rich’s The Dream of a Common Language.  I read the first page, the first poem, which Reese Witherspoon specifically reads and thinks about in the movie. She died a […]

What I learned in 2014 and what I hope for 2015

I believe the past, present, and future are all woven together in ways I can’t fully understand.  I also believe that a central task of adulthood is accepting, making peace with, and celebrating our individual pasts and histories.  This is the only way we can embrace what is, let alone what lies ahead. So, onward […]

A darkness full of light

December 22, 2011, the Church of the Holy Sepulchre, Jerusalem These are the darkest days.  And they are so full of light. Yesterday was the shortest day of the year, the winter solstice, which I regularly refer to as the holiest day of the year for me. I find the darkness is deeply comforting.  Maybe […]