Category Archives: musings

Lightness visible

Tweet “Mummy!” Whit spluttered as he came up, blowing water out of his mouth, his snorkel mask askew.  “Look!” He indicated below where he was treading water.  Simultaneously we ducked under.  I looked over and watched him gazing at the school of fish swarming along the bottom of the ocean.  The wonder was palpable in […]

Commensurate to our capacity for wonder

Tweet I’m still processing all the marvelous experiences that we had in the Galapagos last week.  It is going to take me more than one post to capture everything about the trip, what we saw, what we learned, what we remember.  The thing that struck me most of all, however, is clear already: the sky.  […]

Bleeding into mystery

Tweet A few weeks ago, I took Whit to his nine year pediatrician appointment.  As we waited to go in, I thought about the fact that it had been two full years since I wrote close to the surface after his seven year appointment.  Two full years and two minutes, simultaneously. Whit and his pediatrician […]

Carsickness

Tweet For as long as I can remember, I’ve gotten carsick.  Quickly and very.  I may have mentioned the week-long safari Matt and I went on the summer after we met?  By lunch on the first day I was throwing up behind the Jeep.  I spent a week nauseous and vomiting all over Kenya.  It […]

The noise can be too much

Tweet For the most sensitive among us the noise can be too much. – Jim Carrey, to Philip Seymour Hoffman I have not been able to get Jim Carrey’s tweet on the occasion of Philip Seymour Hoffman’s sudden death out of my head.  That line has been running through my thoughts pretty much constantly since […]

The ugly and the broken, the beautiful and the beloved

Tweet I thought about my friend Amanda’s wonderful post, Do you see me? all through the holidays.  December is, of course, a season rife with images of perfect celebrations, of handmade cookies and advent calendars and faces aglow with candles and wonder.  And I won’t lie: we had our share of those things here (well, […]

A new year: looking back, looking forward

Tweet self-portrait (I just cannot use the word selfie) at sunset last week. I believe the past, present, and future are all woven together in ways I can’t fully understand.  I also believe that a central task of adulthood is accepting, making peace with, and celebrating our individual pasts and histories.  This is the only […]

Solstice

Tweet On Wednesday I had the privilege of watching the almost-solstice sunset from the air.  This was my profile in the shadow of that sunset. This is the holiest day of the year for me.  For the last week or two I’ve felt it coming, felt the awareness of the fulcrum we’re perched on more […]

Thanksgiving

Tweet The truth?  It has been a difficult month.  For a few weeks now I’ve been having that world-is-slightly-off-its-axis feeling more days than not.  A soul-level unease that manifests in clumsiness, over-reactivity, and exhaustion.  Do you know this feeling?  I’ve been dropping eggs and feeling more impatient than usual in various parts of my life, […]

The season of darkness

Tweet In a dark time, the eye begins to see. – Roethke This is the darkest season.  Here in the northeast, with still more than a month to go until the shortest day, we are enfolded in the dark by five. It’s fair to say that the contrast, interplay, and interrelation between light and dark […]