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you cannot turn away

“Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit […]

The friends who knew you when

The P-Rade, Saturday afternoon of reunions, 1996 Tomorrow, I will go to my 20th college reunion.  Of course I feel the expected shock that it’s been 20 years, and time feels especially slippery right now: weren’t we just there, as students, in a fog of sunshine and beer and magnolia petals and senior theses and […]

Happy Birthday

Twice a year, I write about this man.  Who is otherwise generally spared.  I have to protect some things, after all!  But today is his birthday, and on this and our anniversary, (9/9) I turn my lens onto him. This is the 19th of your birthdays we’ve celebrated together, Matt. The first one, I was […]

everything is more complicated

Science has taught me that everything is more complicated than we first assume, and that being able to derive happiness from discovery is a recipe for a beautiful life. – Hope Jahren, Lab Girl

Regret

I suspect we can all agree that regret is one of the most toxic of the emotions.  It is both paralyzing and, fundamentally, useless.  I have my share of regrets, but lately I’ve been thinking about how there are certain things that I never regret and others that I always regret.  And even though I […]

one big glorious swirl

The world is in riotous bloom.  We are reminded at every turn of beginnings, fecundity, growth.  The days are long and warm, and summer glints on the horizon, and everywhere I look there are bare legs and smiles.  This is the height of spring: dizzy, jubilant, glorious. But I can’t stop experiencing lasts.  In the […]

wresting wisdom and joy

Hope is an orientation, an insistence on wresting wisdom and joy from the endlessly fickle fabric of space and time. – Krista Tippett Thank you to Courtney Martin, in whose Twitter feed I found this gem.

Thank you

Thank you. I feel intensely aware lately of how grateful I am that anyone’s reading here.  I mean that.  It’s been a difficult few months – that’s not a secret – and the steadfast comments here often make my day(s). Thank you, thank you. If you ever doubt that small actions make a huge difference, […]

Thoughts on Mother’s Day

When I was growing up Mother’s Day wasn’t really a thing in our family.  I’ll be honest that I still don’t love it as a holiday – feels a little contrived to me. And the truth is what I really want on “my” day is a regular day (perhaps this is a midlife thing, like […]

who do what has to be done, again and again

The people I love the best jump into work head first without dallying in the shallows and swim off with sure strokes almost out of sight. They seem to become natives of that element, the black sleek heads of seals bouncing like half-submerged balls. I love people who harness themselves, an ox to a heavy […]