Monthly Archives: October 2009

Questions

(visual aid to jar your memory) Okay, so maybe my passive, indirect post about how I would like to know the answers to these questions but was ashamed to ask wasn’t the most effective. It definitely was pretty classic Lindsey. But I’m trying to push past that. I want to light the fire, with Danielle [...]

Holding ambiguity and emanating peace

The membrane between me and the world is very porous. Certain people have unfettered access to me; I take their input and criticism as truth. It is like having a central line into my chest. Which is good as long as the input is well-intentioned, even if negative. Not good when that is in question. [...]

Anne Lamott, thank God for you.

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like [...]

I need you. I don’t need you.

Kate at sweet/salty has a gorgeous post this morning. Her last lines are a far more evocative and articulate description of something that’s been much on my mind lately. I’ve been thinking about how most everybody’s ‘bad’ behavior comes from deep human emotions. Of how I want to be more compassionate to those I love [...]

Looking for a neon answer, finding only gray.

I keep marking this post by Heather of the Extraordinary Ordinary (fantastic blog title) as unread in Google Reader. I keep rereading it, mulling over her words, turning over her images like a flat and sun-warmed beach stone in my hand. Heather’s words have burrowed into my head with the same gentle, quiet insistence that [...]

Thank you, Mummy.

It is nearing my bedtime (yes, 9:30, sad!) and I just went in to kiss Whit goodnight. I leaned down to kiss him, intoxicated by his clean sheets and sleeping smell, and smoothed my hand through his hair. I kissed him several times on the cheek, feeling with my lips where his face was since [...]

Weekend in photographs

Despite forecasts calling for a Two Day Nor’Easter, Saturday dawned bright and clear and cold. Soccer for all. Whit spiced up his soccer outfit with his usual flair.Grace and I headed to the Common, where the Orange Frogs played the Teal Something or Others. I confess I was not paying super close attention and I [...]

Wild Things

This afternoon, as pouring rain turned to fat, wet snowflakes (October 18th! Please, universe, no) I took my children to see Where the Wild Things Are. I’ve been really excited for this movie – when we were at Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs the preview made me cry. I’ve been listening to the soundtrack [...]

Time

Judith Warner’s latest article for the New York Times is an evocative, heartfelt meditation on middle age. This might be my favorite thing she has ever written (and that is saying something). As I read her words I have that overwhelming feeling of recognition, nodding vigorously while I also blink back tears. Warner writes about [...]

So here I am, negotiating my relationship to the world in the past and the present. Which parts of the past do I listen to, and which ones do I not listen to? How do I get my gut and the maps to align? And what do I do when I get to the edge [...]